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An Appalling Sign

I had a bad dream earlier...

"I saw partner with Someone much older and better looking, and they are having brunch, both seems very happy and sweet at the same time.."

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not my blog, but my heart...
after what seems like eternity, it ended.




i am picking up the pieces.
got a lot of lessons learned, and things that will remind me of all the memories.
after all the smiles and laughter, its time to move on.

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After you go, I can catch on my reading

After you go, I have lot more time sleeping

And when you go, it looks like thing's gonna be lot easier

Life would be at ease you know

I really should be glad.

Chorus:But I'm bluer than blue

Sadder than sad

You're the only life this empty room has ever had

Life without you is gonna be

Bluer than blue..

After you go, I have a lot more room in my closet

After you go, I can stay out long if I feel like

And when you go, I can run through half screaming

And no one can ever hear me

I really should be glad

(Repeat Chorus)

I don't have to miss no tv show

I can start my whole life over

Change the numbers on my telephone

but the night will sure be colder.

(Repeat Chorus)

Bluer than blue

Bluer than blue

Bluer than blue..

guilt-free pass

have you ever heard of a guilt-free pass?

hmm. i guess not...

ako rin, until last week when i watched American Pie: the naked mile.

guilt free pass = a pass you can give to your partner in order for them to be single in a given time, doing anything they want to do without feeling guilty.

hmmmm.... possible? i think so.

gago ako to say this, but i think... for a bi couple, there will be a time when both parties will be needing this, lalo na kung nawawala na yung spice sa love story nila.

i know a lot of bi-couples who did it.

at first, i thought it will be a suicide for their relationship, that they will end up in a pit.

but i was wrong, most of the people i know who did it, end up with a stronger relationship.

it is not a question of loyalty or faithfulness, i think it is a question of self disovery, and the key to this tricky "guilt-free pass" is trust.

maybe you are wondering why i have done an entry regarding this topic.

basically, me and my "kaku" dont have a problem.

gusto ko lang makuha opinion nyo... what do you think about a guilt-free pass?

personally. i think it is possible, but not a must to fix things in your relationship.

for some people it might work, for some it might not.

for me... im just happy that me and my "kaku" have this ability to work things out.

love, after all, resolves everyhthing.

for you i will

take this ring as a symbol of my love and faithfulness...

this will bind our two hearts together,

wear this always to remind you how much i care for you.

i will forever cherish you, your lips, your eyes,everything about you.

you are my imperative to live...you brought my life back.

without you i will be lost forever.

your my reason for breathing, for living.

you make me realized how beautiful life is, now i am seeing things in a different way.

you add color to my life.
i promised you that i will take care of you.

i will love you until the end of time.

my life started when i loved you and thats how i want it to end.

-bj tuazon
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dedicated to kaku..

FOR YOU I WILL - MONICA

Yes, when you're feeling lost in the night

When you feel your world just ain't right

Call on me, I will be waiting

Count on me, I will be there

Anytime the times get too tough

Anytime your best ain't enough

I'll be the one to make it better

I'll be there to protect you, see you through

I'll be there, and there is nothing, I won't do

*** I will cross the ocean for you

I will go and bring you the moon

I will be your hero, your strength, anything you need

I will be the sun in your sky

I will light your way for all time, promise you

For you I will, yes yeah, yeah

I will shield your heart from the rain

I won't let no harm come your way

Oh, these arms will be your shelter

No, these arms won't let you down

If there is a mountain to move

I will move that mountain for you
I'm here for you, I'm here forever

I will be your fortress tall and strong

I'll keep you safe, I'll stand beside you right or wrong (rpt ***)

For you i will lay my life on the line,

for you I will fight, oh For you I will die,

with every breath, with all my soul

I'll give my word, I'll give it all

Put your faith in me, put your faith in me

And I'll do anything...oh... (rpt ***)

I will... oh... (rpt ***)

nalilito.

naguguluhan ako...

sabi ng utak ko,
wag daw akong mahulog ng tuluyan,
isa ka lang daw ilusyon, isang magandang panaginip.
hindi ka daw totoo at hindi daw ito magtatagal,
wala daw forever sayo,
ako lang daw ang masasaktan.

sabi naman ng puso ko,
ikaw na ang taong hinahanap ko.
ikaw yung matagal ko nang iniintay,
sayo muling natutong magmahal ang puso ko,
dahil sayo lumambot ang damdamin kong bato.

nalilito ako,
tulungan mo naman ako,
mahal kita...
alam mo yan.
kapitan mo ako at sabayan sa paglalakbay na ito.

emo entry

Paano kung mapa-mahal ka sa isang tao na hindi marunong magmahal?

Huwwwhhaaaat? May pagka-emo, alam ko.
Pero dahil nga sa mga events na nangyari sakin recently, na-experienced ko to.
Pls. read with an open-view on things.Simula:
Sa aking paglalakbay, nakilala ko ang mortal na ito.
Nagkapalagayan kami ng loob, kahit unang beses pa lang namin nagkita, may halong tiwala at respeto na sa pagitan naming dalawa.
Hindi ko inalintana na dalin sya sa aming mundo, kung saan bawal ang sino mang mortal.

Love at first sight? Hindi. Dahil di naman talaga katulad nya ang tipo ko.
Siya nga yung tipo ng tao na pwede kong gawin na gamu-gamo kapag humarang sa daraanan ko at nagkataong mainit ang aking ulo.
Pero mali ako.
Sa ilang oras namin na magkasama, unti-unti ko syang nakilala. Ibang klase ang mortal na ito, sa kanyang kwento, hindi pa sya nagkaroon ng pagkakataong umibig.
Hindi sya yung tipo ng tao na gustong makipag-relasyon, ayaw nya ng halikan na may damdamin, laging laman ang nasa utak nya.
Ayaw nya ng lambingan, hindi sya ang tipo na magtatanong kung kumain ka na o gutom ka na ba. kung may pagkain, kumain ka, kung ayaw mo mamatay ka sa gutom, yun ang tipo nya.
Hindi nya alam yung salitang “pagmamahal”, ang alam lang nya ay purong tawag ng laman.
Purong sex lang ang habol nya sa lahat ng kanyang nakaka ulayaw.

Sa una, ayos lang sa akin. Hindi ko naman kasi gusto ang mortal na ito, sabi ko nga “pandagdag lang sa marami kong kaibigan”, pero matapos ang isang gabi na puro kwentuhan at kulitan, bumigay ang pader ng puso ko.
Sa una akala ko ay awa, dahil para syang batang palaboy na matigas sa panlabas na anyo ngunit naghahanap ng kalinga at umiiyak ang nasa kalooban.

Nagkamali ako.
Dumating ang ibang mga engkantado, kwentuhan, tawanan at kulitan na walang humpay.
may nakilala sya na bagong diwata.
Ang diwata ng higad at gabi.
Hindi ko namalayan ngunit bago pa man nagtakip-silim, sila na ang magka-ulayaw.
isinangtabi ko ang aking damdamin.Nasaktan ako, ngunit hindi ko pinakita o sinabi kanino man.
Hindi ko alam kung anung sakit, sakit na mawalan ng isang kaibigan, o traydurin ng isa pa, o mawala ang isang bagong pag-ibig, sa tatlo, hindi ko gusto ang huli.
Hindi pa nagbubukang-liwayway, sa aking pagpapahinga, naramdaman ko ang kamay nya na kumapit sa akin.
Tinitigan nya ako, walang salita na nabuo sa kanyang labi.
Ramdam ko kung anu ang gusto nyang sabihin, gustong nyang humingi ng kapatawaran.
Iniba ko ang aming usapan.
Alam ko at nararamdaman ko na may gustong mamutawi sa kanyang labi, galling yuon sa puso kaya rinig ko kahit walang tunog. Pero naging bato ko.
Ayoko nang lumalim ang pagtingin ko sa kanya.

Hinayaan ko na lang na ganun ang sitwasyon.
Bago magtanghalian, nakatanaw na lang ako sa mortal kasama ang bagong diwata na magkasama at sabay naglalakad palayo.
Masakit, bawat hakbang nya kapalit ay bigat sa aking puso.
Palayo..
Palayo..
Unti-unti na lang sya naging munting kurot sa aking damdamin.

For you..

I am almost there...
I can feel your heartbeat even from a far.
I want to be there beside you,
I will give up the world for you.

Through dark and stormy nights,
We will be together.

I need you,
Your eyes that tells me how you will take care of me,
Your arms that offers me comfort and security,
Your lips, as red as blood, the lips that I want to kiss every time.

I am beginning to feel something,
The rush of blood and the tingle inside me,
those butterflies inside my stomach.
I know, this time I am right.
Yes!
I am starting to fall.